Random

Thought I would post, not much going on. Just work and sleep. I have been working alot. I am not complaining, I am thankful I have the ability to work and a job I enjoy. I work the night shift, so it is interesting, you would think old folks would want to sleep lol, but believe me they do not. I just love them any way.

We went to Briana's end of the year program last night and it was wonderful. I am so glad it all worked out for her to go to LCA. I was so nervous about her going back to school, we had been homeschooling for 4 years, but it has been a great year. She has done so well,I am so proud of her. I just can not believe she is going to be a senior next year.

Life is just going to fast, I wish somehow I could slow it down just a bit. I was reading on Jamie's blog about how she is leaving her twenty's and it dawned on me I am about to leave my thirty's, wow. I will be 39 this year, don't tell anyone lol. I use to think 40 was so old, not so much now. How did I get to be almost 40? I am sorta shocked by this, I was just 30. I don't think I like it, I am just not having any more birthdays after this year, can I do that? lol.

Alex

The court date that was suppose to happen today is not going to happen. We have been put off till July 18th. The court appointed attorney for the biological father asked for more time. I am a little bummed about it, I wanted it to be over. I think everyone that would read my blog knows the story, but here is the short version. We have had Alex since he was 18 months old and he will be 6 on June 21st. We have been trying to adopt and the mother (who is my sister) has signed off and the BF had to be notified and he was given 30 days to respond, five days before his time was up he sent papers saying he did not want us to adopt. When Alex was a baby I took him to see the BF and gave him my phone # and address, and he never made any attempt to contact. So, we are not sure where this is all going. I am just praying that Judge Corlew will see him for what he is. He is in prison and has been most of his life. He is only doing this because he is mad at my sister, and has nothing to do with Alex. I know that there is purpose in all of this and I am definitely learning to be patient. I know that God has had His hand on this from the beginning and that He is going to take care of this, but to be honest the waiting is driving me bananas. I want him to be my legal son NOW. OK I feel better. I am asking all my blog friends to pray, specifically for Judge Corlew.

Prom

Last night was my baby girls prom. She looked so beautiful. I can not beleive how fast the years have gone. She had a wonderful time with her new boyfriend Matt. They made the cutest couple. We had such a good time yesterday getting her ready. I need to make more time to have just me and Briana days, it was a blast.

Nursing school

Well, I found out this week I did not get accepted into the nursing program. I am bummed about it, but I know it is not Gods time for this, or I would have gotten in. I talked to someone in the nursing department and she told me that I was very close. Sometimes I think it feels better to not have a chance than to be told you were a few points from getting in. It makes me feel like if I would have tried just a little harder. But, then I stop and realize, how well I have done and how far I have come. When God placed the desire in me to seek my nursing degree, I was terrified I could not do it. And, here I am 2 years later with a 3.6 GPA. Wow, if someone would have told me that when I started I would have told them they were crazy,and I give God all the glory. So, I am looking at this as a good thing.
This whole thing has been God driven, I never had any desire to go into the medical field, but God knew where I needed to be and that is where He has placed me.

I know all of this is leading to what Amy ask us in women's Legacy the other night. She told us to think about what our passions were,I don't think I have ever really thought about what my passions are, out side of my family of course. Every time I thought about what am I passionate about I would think of all the pictures I have seen on Crystals, Jamies,and other peoples blogs I do not even know. I sit and watch videos of the children in these countries and I just cry. My heart breaks for the poor children who die from disease that are curable or from just not having clean water and food. To see the hopelessness in their little eyes just rips my heart out, I so want to love all over these sweet children, and in some way help to bring them some comfort. Look how God can use something as simple as blogging to stir something inside of us. So, this is what makes me passionate,and now I have to prepare myself for how ever God wants to use this passion. I know that it is not time for me yet, I just want to be ready when He calls to say "Yes Lord I am ready to go". And, for those who do not know me this is out of my comfort zone for sure, I am not the kind of girl who likes to rough it. My idea of roughing it is a Holiday Inn. So, the thought of going into countries that have no water and electricity scares me to death. I really like my showers, but God has a great sense of humor, and puts desires on our heart that scare the bejevers out of us. So, for now I wait on God to prepare me for His plans. I can not wait to see where God takes me.

Under Attack

Do you ever feel like you are being attacked by satan? Boy, does it feel like that is what is going on. Many things are going on that we have no control over. Some have been pretty bad while others could have been worse. Terry said to me today that God must have something big for us if satan is spending so much time trying to distract us. Wow, he can be so smart, I was not looking at this that way at all. Briana has also shown me what kind of a woman she is becoming, at one point this week I had a melt down and was very upset and she laid on the bed with me and told me God would not put more on me than I can handle, a 16 year old girl was holding a 38 year old woman up. How stinkin cool is that, she really steeped up to the plate this last week. I do not want to go in to detail on here what is going on, but just pray for us. Pray that we can praise God in this storm we are in. None of it is life threatening so we will live through it all. I am very blessed to have a wonderful husband and children. Together with God we can get through anything.

This is the words that God gave me when I was desperately seeking Him, God is so good.


James 1:2-8 (The Message)
2-4Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.

5-8If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought.

Flip Flops and Rain

Yesterday as I was leaving to pick Alex up from school, I stepped on the first step of our porch and I was on the bottom step on my rear. It happened before I knew what was going on. It took me a minute to wrap my brain around what had just happened, as I sat there in the rain, I was trying to figure out if I was hurt, but on the other hand I had to go get Alex. So, I jumped up and off I went, I got up the road a bit and I thought I was going to puke. I did not puke, but boy did the pain start. So, my advise to all is to not wear flip flops in the rain. I am not majorly hurt, just a possibly broke toe , big time bruised butt and bruised arm. I am very thankful for a fat butt, because without it I do believe I would have broken something lol.

"Are My Roots Showing"

Tonight started out like most Mondays, wait till last minute to take online test, hurry and cook dinner, and off the Safe Harbor group. When I got to group only one person showed up, normally the others would call and let me know they were not coming. If they had I would have canceled group,glad they did not call.
We started talking and decided to go down to the sanctuary and listen to Tina Hutchison, she started her bible study tonight("Are My Roots Showing"). When we got down there we saw they were registering and we knew we could not commit to the 6 weeks so we left. I got in my car and headed out of the parking lot and something told me to just go and slip in the back and listen. So, that is what I did, I sat in the back all by myself.
God spoke to me about many areas of my life, and I had real clarity on somethings that I need to do. I want to be the woman He wants me to be,on the inside, and the outside. Tina did a great job, you could see God shine through her.
I am going to do Tina's bible study from afar, I am going to stop by on Mondays and get the paper work. Thank you Tina for your obedience to the Lord, you are truly a woman that God is using in mighty ways.