Random

I really don't have too much to blog about, just thought it was time to post something new. The business is going OK just slow, I feel like it is going to pick up. There are two new business opening next week in our complex, that will bring more foot traffic. I know that God has a plan for my business, but boy has satan been all in my head, making me doubt. It is a daily battle to fight him, I loved the sermon Chris gave Sunday, it has helped me, so everyday I put on my armor and go into battle. And, I can truly tell you it has helped me this week.

On another note, here is a update on the adoption, the bf is getting out of jail this month. I think it could even possibly be tomorrow. So, I have no idea where we go from here. Once he gets out he will not have a free attorney, and there is always the not being able to find him once he gets out. So, I have no idea what is going to happen, but I can tell you that I am through worrying about this. I can truly say for the first time I have given this to God and left it with Him, no more picking it up, no matter what happens. I can not do it anymore, I know that no matter what happens Alex is not going anywhere. I want so desperately for him to legally be my son, but he is my son, and I do not need a piece of paper to say that. I will keep you updated as I know things. Just pray, this has gone on for a long time now, and we just want it to be over.

Well for a post I said I did not have much to say it turned out pretty long lol.

No Court.....Again

We were scheduled to go to court tomorrow, but I received a call from our attorney to let us know that it has been put off again. They are now requesting a DNA test, are you kidding me. He is the one who would not sign the papers because he wanted to be a father. Now he is requesting a DNA test. I am so confused, just SIGN the papers and it will be over. So, I have no idea where this is going. I would do a happy dance in the street if he turns out to not be the bio-father. He is suppose to get out of prison next month, so that means he will not have a free attorney. And, he will have to pay for the DNA test, because I am not. So, that is where we are at with our long adoption.

I know this is a good thing. God has a perfect plan and I just have to be faithful for a bit longer. God is in control of this not judges, attorney, DNA test, only God. So I have no worries, just frustration and to be honest some anger. Thank you for your prayers, lets just keep them going. I will update when I know more.

Happy Birthday to my baby girl

Seventeen years ago I gave birth to my sweet baby girl. At that time I had no idea how blessed I would be by this event. Briana has brought such joy to my life. I am daily amazed by her, she is such a wonderful young woman. I am equally amazed that someone who came from inside of me is this amazing. Briana is a young woman that knows what she wants and is not afraid to go after it. She loves the Lord and seeks Him in her life. The proudest I am is when I go by her room and see her in the word. She truly wants God in her life, that is so different than where I was at her age. She is so much smarter than I was at her age, and that makes me so proud. I have always been honest with her and tried to tell her that a life without Christ is not a life at all, and thus far she has listened. I am a very proud momma today of a very special 17 year old daughter.

Kitchen 2 Kitchen

We have a website!!!!!! Go check us out. I am so excited, and proud of my talented husband. Terry has put lots of work into our new website and it looks great. He is not finished, but it looks great already. So, go check us out.
kitchen2kitchenonline.com

My mind wont be still, so I blog

Here I am sitting up when the rest of the house is sleeping. I do this alot, it seems like lately when I lay down in the bed my thoughts just go crazy. I can not turn them off long enough to go to sleep, any one else have this problem? I usually get up and go to bible gateway and read. Don't you think it is amazing how God can give us a word just when we need it? I love how that always happens, many times the same verse will come up in different settings, I just love how He speaks to me.

I have been struggling lately with faith, knowing that God is going to take care of everything, but convincing myself of this has been a battle lately. I feel like Peter and if I take my eyes off of Jesus I will sink and he will say to me "ye of little faith, why did you doubt" I know that doubt comes from satan, and I have to be careful not to let him have a stronghold on me, so I am trying very hard to keep my eyes on Jesus. I want to stay on the water walking towards Him. I do pretty good most of the time, but satan is persistent and he tries to get me at 1:45am. So I fight him by reading the word and right now blogging lol. I know the things we go through make us stronger, we mature and sometime even learn the things that God wants us to learn. I know that I am right where God wants me and that no matter the outcome of everything, the one thing that will with out a doubt stay the same is my wonderful God that I am leaning on and becoming closer to every day, moment by moment. OK I feel better, I am going to give the bed another try.

Ten Years ago today

Ten years ago today I married my best friend. I can not believe it has been 10 years. I will never forget the way Terry ask me to marry him. He took me on a trip to Gulf Shores on New Years, and under a beautiful full moon, at my favorite place, on one knee, he ask me to be his wife (and might I add with a beautiful ring). I remember being excited, scared and in shock. I had no idea, and if you know me, you know how nosy I am, and how hard that had to be lol. This was a second marriage for both of us so we talked about what we wanted and did not want. We decided against a big wedding(been there done that), we would just come back to Gulf Shores and get married on the 4th of July. We did not want it to be a big deal just family. We told our friends and everyone wanted to be a part of our day. So, by the time it was all said and done over 30 people followed us to the beach. We were going to get married on the beach, but the more I thought about the weather that time of year I decided it was a bad idea, and boy was I right it was over 100 degrees that day. We got married at the Gulf Shores Wedding Chapel, and it was beautiful. My mom gave me away and Briana stood beside me. I wish I had a pic to put on here(only have real live pics), it was so simple and so pretty. Everyone that was important to us was there. After we were married we went to lunch, and then that night we had a party at the pool and watched the fireworks, it was magical.

Over the past 10 years there have been many ups and downs, but I can tell you one thing that has only grown stronger and that is my love for Terry. Through everything that has happened the one constant person in my life has always been Terry. He has always been faithful, hard working and my friend through all we have been through. So many couples give up when it gets hard, it has only made us stronger as a couple. And, I am so proud of that. The most important thing that has happened in this last ten years is that Terry gave his life to Christ and I rededicated my life to Christ. We did not start our marriage seeking God, but we are daily seeking Him, and want to have a marriage that brings glory to Him.

Terry, I know you will read this(you are one of my few readers lol) and I just want you to know how much I love you and I am so blessed to have you in my life. Thank you for loving me and our children. Thank you for always supporting me, and being my very best friend in the world. And, most of all thank you for showing Briana how a woman should be treated, and Alex how a man should treat his wife. Thank you for putting up with my crazy self. I can not wait to watch you grow old since I will not be doing that (ha!ha!). I can not wait to see what God is going to do in our lives, I am ready for the ride good or bad I am going on this ride with you. I love you, happy anniversary.